Question:
Jim,
I was Honorably discharged from my service in 1994.
I applied a service connection injury and was denied C&P. I was diagnosed with depressive disorder and was referred to take medication by VA professionals on 1996. I have been taking anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medications since 1999. I have been prescribed, by the VA, numerous medications to include doses to cure PTSD.
I saw an ad in one of the city bus one morning and the ad was for a PTSD, research study. I called the number up and inquired about getting into the program . . . to make my story short, I was accepted in the program and undergone a thorough evaluation which revealed that I did have PTSD.
With that being said, I took the necessary step to aid my personal search to my wellness. On 2007, I submitted a claim to the VA for Anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I, shortly after, received a denial from my VARO. However, I recently receive an order for a C&P exam for my joints instead of psychological exam to prove my illness stemming from my service in the military.
I'm a victim of hate crime while serving. I was attacked and sexually assaulted by men from my company. I suffered male on male Military Sexual Trauma (MST).
I was taken to the Battalion Officer of the Day right after my attackers fled. I did not disclose the whole event . . . leaving out the event that lead to my MST. On of the guys involved in the attack assaulted me a 2nd time hitting me with a baseball bat across my face. I was taken to a base clinic and nearly died (comatose). I managed to punch the face of the attacker that hit me, leaving him with a black eye. I was able to identify him when the Provost Martial Officer escorted me to the attacker's quarters.
I'm left with out any trace of the incident. I tried to get assistance from various Federal agencies, to include DOD, NCIS, Dept. of the (Military), but no luck. All I want is to backtrack the cases of BCD discharge of the men involved and it should render a clear and concise reasons for their UCMJ discharge. I know for a fact that the man that hit me in the face with a baseball bat was arrested and was sent to the brig, for assaulting me.
While in Mogadishu, Somalia, I was serving as an Engineer. My platoon received small arms fire in numerous occasions, but we were prevented to return fire by my platoon sergeant because we were operating under the U.N.'s Peace Keeping mission.
After I got diagnosed with PTSD, I applied for compensation from the events in Mogadishu and Hate Crime assault and MST which directly contributed to my Severe Anxiety, Chronic Depression, and PTSD. I have been taking many meds for a long time and tracks of documents shows just that. The VARO wants me to prove to them when they wrote to me to provide more factual documents of the events.
I'm undergoing PTSD group therapy and Family counseling.
Tell me if I have any way of obtaining additional proof from the OOD report and PMO reports that lead to the BCD of any of the men involved in my attack. The hell with the compensation, I just want to prove that my ordeal truly took place and I'm ready to come forward that MST for males does happen.
Do you think you can help me? My battle is not over, I know that somewhere in the military are archived files that could shed light to what I have been telling the VA that directly causing my illness. I could provide you with the incident letter that I provided the VA. However, I would rather have you read it in person. Could I make an appointment to meet with you? I don't know if you trust what I say or feel comfortable meeting with me.
Should I stop asking VFW or DAV to represent me? I have not received any positive result from their service. I'd rather do this by myself or get a professional guidance perhaps.
It does seem to me that my claim for psychological disorder has lost its importance and re-directed to a lesser degree of service related injury. If this is so, then I really do not know how to go about my case, my service connected illness has a significant impact on my life, wellness, and whole being.
I don't think that anyone can truly assist me with my case. I tried VFW, and contacted many Federal and DOD agencies' to include IG's and base commanders. The VA wants me to provide proof that even the Federal agencies that I contacted could not produce such sort of proof. I have many documents that support my claim and I'm left alone to deal with this problem. I did not ask for this to happen.
Answer:
It's unfortunate for us all that I'm familiar with other cases of male on male Military Sexual Trauma that are very much like yours. Men sexually assaulting or raping other men doesn't happen often but it isn't rare either. I trust what you tell me is true. You aren't the only man that this has happened to. Others write to me with records of similar events.
It is disturbing that often all records of MST seem to vanish. Military leaders who should be responsible in dealing with these crimes are poorly trained to face the realities of such offensive misconduct and are likely to do their best to sweep it all under a rug. This is true in instances of male of female assault and rape but particularly true when it's male on male. No right thinking man understands this offense and most don't even want to contemplate it.
I have no confidence in DAV or VFW to handle your case. I can't meet with you. You and I are separated by about 1000 miles.
I wouldn't be uncomfortable meeting you as I'm all too aware of the vagaries of human behavior. You and others, male or female, who have experienced similar crimes must be encouraged to speak out. The only way to prevent such things happening to others is to recognize the reality of it all.
I would like you to contact a lawyer and I'll provide you with his name and telephone number. I don't know him personally but I do know he was a great help to a Veteran who writes me often. This Veteran was sexually assaulted in during his service. This attorney fought and won his case and he has an outstanding reputation as a hard fighting advocate. Tell him that I referred you. Then, get back with me and tell me how it went for you and whether he will be able to help.
I need your feedback so I can help other Veterans in the future. If this attorney can't help, we'll go other places that may be able to.